turning inward...

Tears turning inward



flooding her insides
as her heart becomes inflamed
with a hurt so deep
so dark
charred by an absence
of love, of respect,
of care...of him...

Tears turning inward
filling her mind
her heart
her spirit ~ with the deepest pain in the darkest placein the deepest way...
Tears turning inwardfor they have nowhere else to go
heart dying inside turning black scorched by her burning tears
deceased being
deceased heart
deceased love
deceased from the fragile state that ITonce was for love ceased to be what was thoughtthe path was decided for herand there was no chance for her, for them.
fate? decided that it was not okay and not okay for her to express her thoughts, her feelings, so she held them at bayuntil they had no choice but to move inwardas no outward release could be found...
...what decided this?she had no part...
she is left withTears turning inward.

© 2009

As you slipped into the darkness

your soul cried out for the chains

to be pried from their grip that

held and

suffocated your being

this crinoline steel-like web that's cast itself

to the winds 

to the deepest darkest places

where life has no chance to be,

to survive

what else is there to

this dance of damning qualities

within, without...

where  life has turned

brought a wickedness

from below

levels deep

hidden in disparaging thoughts

that forever drown
who she wants to be...

©

2009

image source: Tears_of_stone_III_In_memoriam_by_aphostol

sweet surrender and such... 3 for 1

bring to me

this




sweet surrenderthat lives within these shades of grey days of grey
days of grey

i come undone
when you're away
you're away
you're away...

sweet surrender
painful and sweet are you!
sweet surrender
is all i can do...

i come undone
each time your face meets mine
and we stand before this love
sublime...
i come undone

o' i dream
i dream
i dream

Until the spell is broken
 broken
 broken
all the while wondering if you're true...
true
true

if you're true...

©
2009
image source: m x 127s by scarabuss

do not take
from me that which is ME

let me always know and be at comfort
with the unknown

for we speak
we share
we commune
we devise
we plan
we exist
we acknowledge

the unknown does not frighten ME
though i have been known to frighten the UNKNOWN

for he or she knows of the Beauty
that i seek...

© 2009
image source: coh by alex vasilenko

oh, if i were you my love
i would settle in to those feelings,





the unknown
has bequeathed
upon you
and in turn me...
to not bend with such
and dance with awhile, would be
ever so sinful
a gift as this should not be
ignored
forgotten
or displaced.

can't you see this love?
or does it simply
resemble all
others you have seen?
is it different?
something special,
something charmed and magnificent?!
is it ordinary
or extraordinary?!

is is unreal or real?
you tell me my love
lend me your thoughts, love

for mine are laid out like
a platter filled with feast
symbolic of the feast of the gods
that lay at your feet and mine...

shall we partake
what a treat that would make
but as long as we do not forsake

oh my love, where shall we go?
do we flee?
or simply lay it to rest
my love

oh my love

ohmy
love...
if i were you...

© 2009
image source:couple+in+cafe...7RGgy4cxidb73efd9qv1OwYx_500  
my newest painting (especially for my kindred-spirit sisters) at: G A R A H S T A H